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In 3 Months I’ll be 37

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In three months I’ll be thirty-seven. I will be thirty-seven years old. I am not sure how this happened. On my thirtieth birthday I remember my mother saying to me, “How did I become the mother of a thirty year old? When did you get to be thirty?” It seems like yesterday she said this to me.

This year is the first year I don’t feel fitter than the last. For over a decade now each year has brought me to a place of increased fitness and performance. This year, I don’t feel as fit as last year. I eat better, but oh my goodness how strict I have to eat these days to be as lean and to feel as good as I desire. I think of the foods I consumed when I was younger, how much I should have weighed, and the mysteriousness of how calories count differently now than they did then.

People always used to think I was so much younger than I really was. Maybe now they still do, but it doesn’t feel as rewarding to be told you look like you’re in your early thirties. It felt good to be told I looked as if I was in my twenties. That doesn’t happen anymore.

Maybe what’s happening is quite natural and healthy. Maybe I’m not running in circles anymore – overtraining, overworking, over thinking. Maybe I’m a more well-rounded person now and with that comes the price of not being so good at absolutely everything. Does it matter if my lifts are a little lighter than they used to be? Does it matter if I haven’t tried for a max set of pull ups in a long, long time? Because, oh, my elbows ache in a way they never used to.

And I think I wouldn’t trade those aches for anything. With every ache and pain, with every broken bone and bit of scar tissue, came a tiny lesson. Those tiny lessons built up into the experience that is my life in the gym. The baby toes that stopped working years ago. The broken rib that tells me when it’s going to rain. The crooked collar bone that grates against the barbell. I can feel the scar tissue, the crepitus, and I find it strangely comforting. It’s a scrapbook of where I’ve been.

It is my life in the gym. It is my life.

In three months I’ll be thirty-seven and if I wanted to, I could be fitter than last year. I could train every day. I could write myself a program and work on my weaknesses. I could throw my name into the competition again.

But I won’t, and I’m okay with that. I love what my body can do and I also love that I am a writer, a businesswoman, a coach, a traveller, and a perennial student.

In three months I’ll be thirty-seven. This year I am better at being a human being than I’ve ever been before.

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Friday Link Love

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Starting this week, every Friday I will be posting some of my favorite readings from that week. Some are by my favorite female voices out there on the internet, some are in regards to interesting health issues or exercise techniques, and some are just inspirational and in need of sharing.

Below you will find my favorite four links for this week and a short excerpt from each to give you an idea of the content. Please check them out!

No Damsels In Distress – CrossFit Lisbeth

“This isn’t a fairytale. I can’t manufacture hope out of nothing, like a blanket out of invisible threads, woven on some magic loom. There are no magic beans and there isn’t some long-haired prince who will ride up and save you. Even if your life is seriously f***ed, you will have to save yourself…”

New Starting Position – Sage Burgener

“So, my whole point of telling you this is because I recently learned something new that I am SO excited about! Just when I thought I knew everything there was to know about me and my weightlifting, I went up to train with Greg Everett and he taught me a new starting position that has completely changed my lifts and my life (two things that are really one in the same)…”

DID it! – Dana’s Blog, Derby City CrossFit

“I wondered a lot before showtime, before the moment came that I stepped back from the rack with 180 pounds on my back, what it would feel like. And I imagined it a lot, visualizing taking the weight and completing the squat. But as hard as I found it to imagine a weight heavier than I’ve ever lifted, I found it impossible to imagine what it would feel like to reach that goal…”

Tofu Makes You Dumn – Stumptuous.com

“A study in the JACN followed thousands of subjects following a variety of Japanese and Western-style diets in Hawaii. The study concluded that in subjects ranging from their 70s to their 90s, “poor cognitive test performance, enlargement of ventricles and low brain weight were each significantly and independently associated with higher midlife tofu consumption.” In other words, the more tofu a person consumed earlier in life, the worse their prognosis for healthy brain aging would be…”

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Athena Profile – Andrea Duran, Softball Player & Silver Medalist

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Andrea Duran’s accomplishments in softball are too many to list here, but to give you a brief idea: She is a member of the U.S. Women’s National Team and was a member of the 2008 U.S. team that won the Silver medal at the Olympic Games in Beijing.  In the summer of 2009, she also earned three gold medals with the U.S. team at the Canada Cup, the KFC World Cup of Softball and the Pan American Games Qualifier. Andrea is a graduate of UCLA where she was a two-time National Champion. She was also named Pac-10 All-Academic three times, earning first-team honors as a junior and senior. In 2006, she was named a first-team ESPN/CoSIDA Academic All-American.

Do you think it’s hard for people to see women as both physically strong and beautiful? Why?

I think that in the past it might have been hard to see women as physically strong and beautiful because of all the sociological standards that we have held women to. Men and boys were always the ones to play sports and be the physically strong ones.  Physical strength never equated into beauty for the women of the past. As I grew up I loved to play sports and was a physically strong child in that area.  A lot of times I was called a “tom boy” because I enjoyed athletics and I loved competing with the boys. I feel like in the present day and in probably the past decade or so, health and wellness has been a big part of our society, so seeing physically strong woman and athletes is more common and therefore more acceptable. I feel like women and society are embracing the fact that strength is beauty inside and out.

What about being seen as beautiful and smart? Do you think women sometimes think they can’t be both?

This is a common stereotype I believe – “The pretty dumb girl” – and because of this stereotype I believe beautiful girls are sometimes judged and are presumed not to be smart. This might have an effect on the way beautiful girls view themselves. They may think that smart and beautiful cannot coincide.    In my opinion being beautiful can be defined in so many ways by so many people it is just the perspective that you choose to take. A lot people may feel that being smart is beautiful.

Have you ever felt judged for being too pretty or too athletic, by either men or women?

I don’t think I have ever been judged for being too pretty! I think when I was younger I was judged a lot because I did play with the boys, I got kicked out of a couple of softball leagues because I threw too hard for my teammates. This was hard as a kid because I was just doing what I loved and I didn’t know any different. I remember I got called a boy once when I was growing up because of what I was wearing I was so mad. Now that I am adult, I think I get judged for being too athletic based on what I wear on a daily basis. I think that when I walk into boutiques or department stores, when I am trying to get my shopping fix, I get judged because most of the time I am wearing workout clothes. Sometimes I do not greeted or helped in the same way other woman are, who are dressed in regular clothes.

How do you deal with keeping up your feminine side while being an athlete?

I feel in the sport of softball we get stereotyped a lot. A lot of my teammates wear makeup and ribbons and bows when they play. I will occasionally wear ribbons in my hair, and earrings in my ears, but for the most part makeup and ribbons are not me. I feel the girls that do show more of their feminine side out on the field stand out more, but I always want to stay true to myself. I think sometimes it’s a struggle because you want people to know, that yes I am an athlete, but I am still a woman, and still like to do girlie things. I still like to wear makeup and get dressed up when I am hanging out with friends  or going out. I think a lot of times as athletes we get stuck in “athlete mode.” We are so used to being in workout clothes for most of our day that when we go shopping or travel we tend to wear what is comfortable, whether it be workout pants or whatever and I feel like we may get judged for that. I am also not a big makeup wearer off the field so it is harder for me to show my feminine side by just being the sporty girl that I am, but I stay confident and true to myself and that is all I can do.

What is your favorite part of being a woman?

I think my favorite thing about being a woman is just empowering other woman and girls to do great things. We as woman know that we don’t always get the respect we deserve but we use that to only make us better and stronger. I also love being able to get dressed up in heels and dresses from time to time. I haven’t had children yet but I love knowing that one day I will be a mother, god willing, and I wouldn’t be able to do that if I was a boy.

What is the hardest part about being a woman?

Giving birth!? I just think trying to compete in a man’s world against men. Men respect woman more in the present day but it is still tough for us at times.

Do you have any guilty girlie pleasures?

When I was a little girl my girlie pleasure was definitely Barbies. I am probably one of the few tomboys that played with Barbies. Now that I am older I love to go get pedicures and manicures occasionally and treat myself to massages and shopping sprees.

Did you ever wish you weren’t a woman?

The only time I ever wish I wasn’t  a woman is when I turn on Sports Center and see all of these men making millions of dollars playing the sports that they love. The games they have enjoyed since they were children are now their jobs! I wish I could do the sport that I love forever until I was ready to retire. Yes, I am currently playing the sport that I have loved since 10 years old, but mostly for the love of the game, getting paid probably the equivalent to a major league baseball player’s weekend bar tab. It is so frustrating at times. I know if I was a boy I would most likely be playing professionally making millions or at least hundreds of thousands of dollars because I am one of top players in my sport.

Has being female ever held you back in any way? (career, sports, etc)

Being female has held me back because as a softball player I am not able to make my sport a career like some male athletes are able to do. Women’s sports are just not as mainstream as men’s.

How has being female been an advantage? (career, sports, etc)

I think being female has been an advantage for me when it comes to my sport of softball because I am able to reach out to so many young girls across the U.S. and teach them the game of softball along with life lessons and other skills. I am glad that I can be a positive female role model for young girls that look up to me and other woman in my sport. I wish when I was a child that there were more female role models to look up to.

If you could go back and give your 12 year old self one piece of advice, what would it be?

I would tell her to always be true to herself, teach her how to be a more confident, to focus on the positives in everything and everybody, to not be so hard on herself, and to just be the best you can be no matter what you are doing.

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